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Post 13: Reheated Pizza

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Since nothing is really new, I’m just gonna talk about random stuff. I used to hate left overs. I wanted absolutely nothing to do with them. But once I was homeless, I appreciated reheated food more (though you can never reheat fries no matter the fry). Today I got a majority of my homework done and have been talking to my romantic interest all morning and currently am. I decided to reheat pizza. I still do not understand how people eat leftover pizza cold. I still find that pretty gross. There is only one place that I can eat cold pizza from and that is when I’m camping, there’s a place nearby that me and my friend will get from that is pretty good. I have two favorite pizza places, Papa John’s and a place called Marions. Both for different reasons. Papa Johns is good for sweeter tasting sauce and crust. I usually get pepperoni and pineapple with extra sauce. Marions is better for savory. I get sausage with extra sauce. I do not really like sausage unless it is from Marions and that is the only place I will get it on pizza. I like their pepperoni and pineapple too, but the sausage is best. My favorite pizza build is thin crust, pepperoni, pineapple, jalapenos, and extra sauce. Then add parmesan and red pepper flakes. No oregano, that stuff is disgusting. In my opinion, pizza is best reheated in the oven. It brings back the crispy without issues that other methods I have tried bring.

Post 12: Frustrated

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I’ll start with the good and then rant. I got a new headset coming which I’m excited about. I also got to go on another e-date with my crush. I don’t feel as alone during this quarantine because he and his friends have let me into their servers and if I’m feeling lonely or having a hard time, I can just voice chat when they’re all there.

Now time for rant. I haven’t been able to access my schools library site without it crashing. I often can’t even get the page to load and I need it for a project that my professor has given me an extension on. Honestly I don’t think she realizes how much I appreciate it. I’ve been trying to get in touch with our schools writing help desk to see if they could help me get the resources I need but no one has been able to meet with me at this point in time. I have been trying desperately to find a time to meet online with them. To say I’m frustrated is an understatement and I have most definitely cried over this issue. I wish I knew what was wrong with the site that it isn’t working or my computer has issue with it. Either way, it’s incredibly hard to not be super stressed. I feel incredibly stressed that I have not been able to resolve it and hope that things can get sorted soon. At least this post should reach the correct amount of words.

Post 11: Nothing Has Changed, But I Did Have a Date.

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We’re in quarantine still. There’s really no update. The only new thing is that I had an online date, both because of quarantine and because of long distance. We spent the day watching movies and played video games together. It was incredibly nice and I really enjoyed it. Myself and the person have gone through similar things and we have connected really well. Spending time with him is refreshing and he plans to visit the U.S once all this craziness is over. I’m really looking forward to it. That being said, we’re not dating, yet at least. Overall though, everything has been mind-numbing boring. Classes have just been hard to pay attention to and I feel like nothing is improving. It’ll be interesting to get through the rest of the semester like this. I really don’t know what to write about. This is the one time that I may end a post early before I fill quota because I don’t know what to write.

Post 10: The Blessing and Curse of Online Classes

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Classes resumed this week entirely online and each teacher is doing things different. I have a class each day that meets. My other two classes just give assignments due throughout the week and when they should be turned in (as well as guidelines and information relevant). It’s a bit difficult to keep up with at times. Online classes make me feel lethargic and want to put things off. I feel like I hardly have the energy to pay attention despite not doing anything. Without seeing people, I find it hard to have the motivation to take care of myself. I tend to want to stay in bed all day. My depressed mind feels heavy and sleepy.

On the upside- I have been spending more time online. Spending time in servers with friends and even made a new friend that I’ve actually become quite close. We have similar backgrounds and past experiences. Despite how lonely this stupid quarantine can feel, it helps immensely to be able to at least vocally chat with people. This is a situation where I feel technology helps us in keeping us connected. Without it, I think mine and many others would struggle even more with getting through this isolation period.

Honestly, I hate that classes have been cancelled until the end of the semester. It makes classes harder and I feel very distracted. Focusing on a lot of this is really hard for me. Plus the stress of not having any solid income is scary. I worked at my school, and since they more or less shut down, I can’t work. I feel like we weren’t taken into consideration.

Post 9: Early Spring Break and Online Classes Because of Coronavirus

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School got cancelled early because of panic more or less. I’m not a medical professional or anything, but this virus is no more deadly than the flu. But to move on, I work for the school I go to and they won’t let student workers work, even those of us who aren’t travelling. To say I’ve been frustrated and anxious is an understatement. A lot of things feel like they don’t make sense and I also fear how online classes will go especially in classes that rely heavily on participation. 

I did get to go to the zoo with friends and met up with my brother at a pretty neat market. It was nice to be out of the house. I don’t really know what to write about. I can’t really see my friends right now and being home all the time isn’t the best. Even though I’m introverted, I still like to see the people I consider friends. I have an exam in religion due, and then not really anything until online classes start. All of this is just incredibly weird. It’s like a real version of the Plague Inc. game. I just wonder if we’re taking the right steps, or if we’re freaking out over something that has killed less people than the common flu. I just- I can’t help be a little bitter. I know, “think about the elderly or the people with compromised immune systems” but like, it this any different from any other cold/flu season for them? Like yes, I’m glad people are washing their hands more and trying to be healthier, but the panic buying and fear mongering is just ridiculous.  

Post 8: Insert Title Here Because I’m Not Feeling Creative.

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I’ve decided to take the plunge and start trying to get used to beer, mostly because it’s cheaper than liquor. My taste buds currently do not appreciate me. In other news, the class that I write these blogs for has made me realize just how differently I view relationship, both platonic and romantic. I think that is partly due to me making more of an effort to challenge myself on what is healthy and not in relationships. There is a lot of behavior that has become mainstreamed that honestly is toxic. People try to hard to make bad things work and convince themselves that their happy and in love even when their not. I understand wanting things to work out, but at some point you have to take a step back and ask how much are each of you sacrificing your own true happiness to “make things work”. Really it only seems to make people bitter with each other. Recently a friend was talking about communication issues with her boyfriend. When I asked about if the problem had be addressed, she said yes. When I asked if there was a plan in place to better communication or had things improved overall, she said no. To me that seems incredibly counter productive. If a problem is brought forward to be addressed, then there should be steps taken to fix it. Instead she results to checking his online statuses and repeatedly messaging him. That’s not something I agree with and think that if things escalate to that point, you’re better off just breaking up and finding someone that will work with you on things you want. People are so attached to the idea of love and what it is and think that they have to experience it, that they typically will miss when it truly comes along. They also confine themselves to thinking that true love can only be romantic. I completely disagree. Some of the deepest and truly unconditional love I have experienced, has been for my friends.

Post 7: Goings On

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Midterms haven’t been to bad. I decided to drop one of my classes because at the moment it’s just too much. Over the weekend I brought my dog to campus and some of my friends got to meet her. Then stayed with a friend and got to just hang out and have fun. Overall things have been a little stressful I suppose. I’ve been dealing with some bad dreams and working through some tough topics. Everyone does though. I’m just trying to stay as focused as I can while still having fun and being around people that I want to see. Sometimes writing these are hard. Trying to hit the word count is a  struggle.

I lost one of my gauges which I’m pretty sad about. But I got some new ones. Wood and ones that have dinosaurs on them. I think they’re pretty cute. I don’t know if I’ll ever find the gauge I lost. People really like my dog and she soaks up all the attention like a sponge. I’m also going to help a friend put up posters of the subway lines from Chicago. We’ve listened to so much music this weekend. This post is honestly all over the place.

Often I don’t know how things will go and trying to work through things in my head can be a task. Why are some thoughts so jumbled. They’re our own thoughts, things that happened to us. It’s hard to work past them though. Which is frustrating. It’s a work in progress.

Post 6: Time

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Today I played some Dungeons and Dragons. I had forgotten what it was like to take time out of all things stressful and just hangout. We rolled our character sheets and started fleshing out characters. I even got to bring my dog along. This past week was very stressful and I had a hard time. It’s hard to manage so much at time. In Dungeons and Dragons I’m playing a necromancer alien. It’s genderless and it’s race doesn’t participate in names. It has given itself a name for the purpose of this journey and it’s Aspidischie. It’s goal is to collect genetic material and also find good sources of resources for it’s species. The other characters are a cleric Aarakocra, a fire Genasi bloodhunter, and human ranger. Our Dungeon Master (Campaign Keeper) has done a pretty good job of setting up map and getting us into the story. Even the enemy’s have been set up well and the pacing is going well. So far we’ve taken down a necromancer and helped a little girl get her flute back.

I didn’t do so well on my midterms. I sometimes still feel very lost. Like I’m still in the bad place that I used to be. I think I’m just having a hard time managing stress and trying to keep positive. Medicine only helps so much, you know? I’ve been trying to keep myself on track as much as I can. It’s just hard to keep focus and keep motivated. Maybe it’ll get better. Maybe the struggle is what makes our story.

Post 5: A Post of Rambling

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So I have an ear infection. I’m not very surprised though. I get them a lot and when I was little even have my adenoids removed and tubes put into my ears twice. I’ve never had my tonsils removed though. Unlike most kids, I wasn’t plagued with strep throat I guess. At the moment my ear and jaw hurt and yesterday my balance was affected. Everything is really expensive. This is a new topic, I’m just too lazy to do something special to show it so have so words instead. I can’t afford a lot of things right now, which is pretty stressful. Especially since that I’m in college but don’t live on campus. Figuring out what to eat can be a bit difficult. I’m negative in my bank account and food on campus is incredibly expensive. Hopefully I’ll get paid sooner rather than later. I do work in an industrial kitchen for my college, they just kinda messed up with how long they took to rehire me and then get me scheduled because of some previous issues on their end. Which was very frustrating and drained my funds. The part where I work now is much better and much more understanding about mental health. That’s another thing that really annoys me. When colleges will say they’re mental health friendly, but really it’s only towards students regarding work load. They don’t care about regular employee mental health. I think a lot of companies need to be more willing to work with people that have anxiety and depression and other mental illness. Even more willing to work with those with physical disabilities too. We live in a society that just doesn’t care about people and their wellness.

Post 4: How I’ve Been Feeling

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I’ve been feeling pretty rough this weekend, and this past week has been pretty hard too. As always there are ups and downs but I feel like I am wearing myself thin. I really only get one a day a week to myself and it’s not really guaranteed. I’m not a very social person, even though I can come off as being one. I’m one of those people that will talk a lot and try to be more outgoing around people. With my friends though, I enjoy hours of silence in their company. With going to college, a lot has changed. I used to have plenty of time to myself to recharge my social battery and be more prepared to deal with people. Now I spend most days on campus. Given, I commute, so I have to add drive time to long days. I have a club that I’ve joined to try and learn some self defense, as well as started working out because I want to look better, and hosting a study group and going to supplementary instructions. On top of it all, I’m still working, which happens on days I don’t have club. It’s been stressful. I went from not needing to be around people very often, to having to be around them everyday because there’s almost no place I can go on campus to be alone. Here, community is a big deal. But what if being apart of that community is incredibly draining? It’s so hard to find balance