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Post 12: Frustrated

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I’ll start with the good and then rant. I got a new headset coming which I’m excited about. I also got to go on another e-date with my crush. I don’t feel as alone during this quarantine because he and his friends have let me into their servers and if I’m feeling lonely or having a hard time, I can just voice chat when they’re all there.

Now time for rant. I haven’t been able to access my schools library site without it crashing. I often can’t even get the page to load and I need it for a project that my professor has given me an extension on. Honestly I don’t think she realizes how much I appreciate it. I’ve been trying to get in touch with our schools writing help desk to see if they could help me get the resources I need but no one has been able to meet with me at this point in time. I have been trying desperately to find a time to meet online with them. To say I’m frustrated is an understatement and I have most definitely cried over this issue. I wish I knew what was wrong with the site that it isn’t working or my computer has issue with it. Either way, it’s incredibly hard to not be super stressed. I feel incredibly stressed that I have not been able to resolve it and hope that things can get sorted soon. At least this post should reach the correct amount of words.

Post 6: Time

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Today I played some Dungeons and Dragons. I had forgotten what it was like to take time out of all things stressful and just hangout. We rolled our character sheets and started fleshing out characters. I even got to bring my dog along. This past week was very stressful and I had a hard time. It’s hard to manage so much at time. In Dungeons and Dragons I’m playing a necromancer alien. It’s genderless and it’s race doesn’t participate in names. It has given itself a name for the purpose of this journey and it’s Aspidischie. It’s goal is to collect genetic material and also find good sources of resources for it’s species. The other characters are a cleric Aarakocra, a fire Genasi bloodhunter, and human ranger. Our Dungeon Master (Campaign Keeper) has done a pretty good job of setting up map and getting us into the story. Even the enemy’s have been set up well and the pacing is going well. So far we’ve taken down a necromancer and helped a little girl get her flute back.

I didn’t do so well on my midterms. I sometimes still feel very lost. Like I’m still in the bad place that I used to be. I think I’m just having a hard time managing stress and trying to keep positive. Medicine only helps so much, you know? I’ve been trying to keep myself on track as much as I can. It’s just hard to keep focus and keep motivated. Maybe it’ll get better. Maybe the struggle is what makes our story.

Post 4: How I’ve Been Feeling

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I’ve been feeling pretty rough this weekend, and this past week has been pretty hard too. As always there are ups and downs but I feel like I am wearing myself thin. I really only get one a day a week to myself and it’s not really guaranteed. I’m not a very social person, even though I can come off as being one. I’m one of those people that will talk a lot and try to be more outgoing around people. With my friends though, I enjoy hours of silence in their company. With going to college, a lot has changed. I used to have plenty of time to myself to recharge my social battery and be more prepared to deal with people. Now I spend most days on campus. Given, I commute, so I have to add drive time to long days. I have a club that I’ve joined to try and learn some self defense, as well as started working out because I want to look better, and hosting a study group and going to supplementary instructions. On top of it all, I’m still working, which happens on days I don’t have club. It’s been stressful. I went from not needing to be around people very often, to having to be around them everyday because there’s almost no place I can go on campus to be alone. Here, community is a big deal. But what if being apart of that community is incredibly draining? It’s so hard to find balance